i have to hurry…

the muse i drank
must be used
before she slips
away into
the ether


breathe again…

it’s me
and for a minute
i’m genuine
and i want
you to know
what i told
my daughter
as she got on the bus
this morning,
with her pink backpack
and too-tight jeans
and hair all braided
as she ignored me

i said
“have a good day”
“i love you”

and i muttered
under my breath
“i love you so much more
than you’ll ever know”

and then i drank
more coffee
and put myself
on a pedestal
only i could bring down

and i did